Today was tiring. It was one of those days that just zip by without you really noticing.
I think I need to add more pizzazz to my daily routine. My routine's just getting too...routine. Pun intended (>.<)
I sort of feel as if my life's reached a hump. And I haven't quite figured out how to get over the hump yet. It's as if I'm itching to do, create, manage, construct something, but I have no clear images yet. And so, I've been praying -for guidance, for strength, for direction, for confidence, for passion, for trust.
I've been thinking about quality of life lately, and how much I'm willing to sacrifice and forego for the sake of the "future." My dad seems to be a very forward thinker, in the sense that he thinks far ahead into the future. Long-term thinking, one may say. Visionary, others may say. I live too much in the present, maybe. Is that even possible, I think sometimes - living too much in the present. I just don't feel that emotionally ready to embrace living for the sake of the future.
These days, I feel stretched, perhaps a bit too thinly in some places. Being pulled here and there, never quite settling in either place. Tons of choices and here I am, where I am now. There's got to be a reason, I say. There's always a reason, isn't there? And so, I can only choose to grow where I am now. I'm still lost, in more ways than one. I have no idea where to go, how to go about things, but I trust - in myself, in the universe, in God. I trust that I'll find my direction one day.
Now, if I could only set the gears in motion...